Good Grief ...

I've had some very bad moments these last few days, but as I've been going through Beth's things, I've been finding some real treasures. She was a treasure, but with some flaws. As are we all. But there were ways in which she was unique, and she touched a wide range of people very deeply. Especially me.

This may sound a bit crazy, but because of what I went through when she left for Iraq, and then when she went through leukemia, I feel as if I may have been inoculated against the very hard moments of grief that I might have otherwise suffered. I have had some hard moments, and maybe I am speaking too soon here. Also, I certainly miss her, and one of the things I miss the most is sharing things with her the things that she would have enjoyed hearing.

For example, the kids and I are at the wave pool today. She loved days like this. And she's not here to share it with. I have asked the Lord to convey to her the peace and happiness that the kids and I are feeling. It may not last. But I'm sure he's got this all worked out. The resurrection to come will fix a lot of things.